07 September
Family love
Stop to think. On fathers day, HOPE, spoke to me. I admit, I have been distant from my father and sometimes frustrated for reasons. I blamed him for not having time to spend with us kids when we were younger, we did not have the intimacy that i shared with my mother. I can not remember a time he played sports with me, besides chess we did not have any other activites. However, I never stopped to think about the long hours he worked to make ends meet for the family. How he was tired after work and needed rest. He was our provider. How i undervalued him, even rebelled and importantly took for granted.
With my mothers passing, I also blamed him for the arguments with my mother that i tried to stop when i was younger. How he made my mother unhappy at those times. Whenever he spoke to me, i would answer with a sharp tongue from anger and frustration. i did not stop to think. How this made him feel.
Four things that we need to keep in mind:
-when a father is respected, the house is in order
-dont judge anyone, unless you yourself are judged
-love them freely with your heart
-let god be the judge
My mother, she was very motherly. My father, he was the man of the house. He disciplined us kids. Each time i did something wrong, I was afraid that he would punish me, sometimes i would hide and sometimes there is no way to hide. From this feeling, I really felt resentment of my dad, he was only there when i needed discipline i thought. Stopping to think now. I realise, who loves me more. A father who spoil me or a father who discipline me and taught me my values? Stop to think and you will see with your heart.
