A week after that first entry
Recent thoughts
Gods hands directed me to care group which revealed many open hearted people which i thought ceased to exist. They made me think straight again, however some things still hasnt registered with me, only one thing that did get through is to believe in god, to prayer to him when i need help or thank god for what i have. He has plans for all of us, that is why he test's us to guide us to live a fellowship life as his childrens. Although i know i wont be a pastor or those christians who preach but i will be a person with open and kind heart.
Eric, the group leader of fusion, ask us a question "where do u see yourself in 5 years, if you see yourself like this in 5years how would u feel? Would you feel you have wasted time?" Although these words have great impact, i feel only a twinge of feeling, a movement might be but it settles. I dont know if i care about anything anymore, all i know now is to seek help from divinve intervention and hope god gives me strength and guide me through his hand on the right path.
